NO ONE'S COMING...[ written '94 ]
Here l sit alone and frightened.
Knowing there's no-one coming.
Have to be strong for me.
Gotta be hard on myself.
There aint no-one else to crack the whip.
God, another day.
Have to get things done.
Sometimes l think l should have stayed Stoned and useless.
Each day is different.
Straight one day.
Bent the next.
lt's push pull all the time.
One foot in front of the other.
Get my thoughts in order.
Eating makes me sick.
Men make me sick.
l have to pass them everyday.
l'm empty inside.
Have to concentrate and find things to do.
No future ahead for me and you.
Still, l try to hold onto hope.
Here l sit frightened.